And it's suppose to be Friday

Things are suppose to be looking up cause it's the weekend. It's not like I can barely cover everything with student loans and all but some nut job has to go and decided to take out some credit cards in my name. Got a statement from Chase Manhattan for a mastercard I've never seen or even signed up for but apparently someone has decided to use. And of course they wouldn't be nice enough to pay the payments on it. So I got a bunch of letters from lawyers stating that I'm being sued by Chase because I haven't been responding to there letters and such. A happy 8 grand this person has decided to ring up against me. Does the madness ever stop GRRR

I'm posing a question for you all

You can answer a simple yes or no if you'd like but...

Have you ever felt trapped. Or not even so much trapped but a very disturbing pressure that everything your good at and everything you want to explore and learn about is stiffled and suppressed by the confines of reality and society? I sit here and just got done reading an article about Joshua Davis who is the mind behind praystation.com and dreamless.org. You can go there but you won't see anything. See he's a designer. But more then just a designer someone who's free of the bonds of reality it seems. In the matrix they talk about this splinter in your mind. When I heard that for the first time watching the matrix not knowing anything about the movie I was like "THAT'S ME!" But not so much in the way of the matrix, but more that freedom of being a child. My 9 to 5, my bills, my regular life seem to be just getting in the way. I envy those people who get to do what there passions and love drive them to be and make a decent living doing it. I've always dreamed of living and working in what I call the Studio. A place where everything around me doesn't stiffle me or hinder me in doing what I need to explore and grow. Photography, light, computers, beauty, technology, philosophy, contradiction, fear, sound, red, animals, stars, etc. etc. All these things I want to know more about, to look at more closely. I feel like I need like a hundred of me to be able to have each one go and explore one avenue of my life. Cause I feel in a lifetime I won't be able to learn/do everything I want to do. Of course everyone I try explain this to tells me "Just Do It.' So my questions...

1) Do I make any sense?
2) Does this even seem possible?
3) Have any idea how to get there?

Thanks

Oh yeah

I nearly forgot....
Last night I was speeding (as always) and started changing lanes to head to the exit light when this car comes racing up on me with flashing headlights.
It didn't bother me so much that I was getting pulled over cause I'd accept the responsibility that I was speeding so if I get caught it's my own fault so I should pay the ticket. But then as I'm pull off the side of the road the other car doesn't slow down and I'm thinking oh shit I'm just about to get rammed. At the last second the car veers off and goes around me. And I thought it was sort of strange that the cop would want to be in front of me. Turns out it wasn't a cop at all. Cause as the truck (turns out) goes around me it's a bunch of kids. Now maybe I shouldn't have but at the same time I don't find it to amusing for people to impersonate police officers. So I called the police gave them the license plate number and the truck's description and let them know that they had blue and red flashing headlights. Maybe in some way I'm a hypocrite but I think police officers for the most part earn that distinction and I didn't find them pretending to be one to amusing.

wow...

lol talk about WRONG...

My creative director told me about this girl who he used to date that one time he dropped change on the ground and went to pick it up and she told him to leave it there and not worry about it. He asked why and she said for all the homeless people.

Tell me that's just not WRONG! lol. Bless her heart I'm sure she meant well but wow... WRONG!