Breaking strings
Dec. 14th, 2004 04:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tsumikMusic and Movies. How my life would be in complete without them. It's funny how much movies can mimic ones own life. I finally got to see Spiderman 2. And in an odd way I do feel like Peter Parker. Sort of clumsy, not quite 100% polished and a bit unsure of himself on one side and yet capable of doing extrodinary things as Spiderman on the other. Funny how when he loses everyone he holds close to him how he loses his ability to be Spiderman. I'm still haunted by my mothers dream of according to korean lore is to mean I'm am to be a world changing success. And while I believe everyones mother tells them that I actually believe it. How I don't know but deep down I feel like something I will do will impact the world in some grand way. I don't believe I will be "that" person who cures cancer, end world hunger, or solidify world peace, but perhaps I'll help the person who does.
In college I spent an entire year studying world religions. I even spent 2 days in a silent monestary, practiced zen meditation, and visited monks, nuns, friers, pastors, and preists. And the question came up over and over "Why are we put on this earth? What is our purpose?" And I spent many, many days asking myself why was I here. And like this little voice in the back of my head kept always saying "Your here to help people." And some days it's so very hard to do that. Some days I wonder where is my Mary Jane? Where is the one to save me? But I heard this tonight and it helps to remind me why I am here:
"Courageous, self-sacrificing people. Setting examples for all of us. Everybody loves a hero. People line up for them, cheer them, scream their names. And years later, they'll tell how they stood in the rain for hours just to get a glimpse of the one who taught them how to hold on a second longer. I believe there's a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble, and finally allows us to die with pride, even though sometimes we have to be steady, and give up the thing we want the most. Even our dreams…"
And while I don't want to be a hero, perhaps I have to give up my dreams to help someone to achieve theirs that ultimately helps others in a way that's bigger then me. I don't know what that is or who that is but I must keep trying. I've told people before that I always like meeting new people cause I always feel there is something I can learn from them. Some way to look at life in a way that I hadn't looked before, but I realize also now that I also look at everyone as someone I can help. Perhaps the next person I help is "that" person. And perhaps I can be the person that "taught them how to hold on a second longer" enough to be Spiderman.
So I ask you, who of you can I help? Cause in some way I believe in all of you enough that you will accomplish something great out there.
So please...
As I hold out for you...
Just hold on a second longer.
In college I spent an entire year studying world religions. I even spent 2 days in a silent monestary, practiced zen meditation, and visited monks, nuns, friers, pastors, and preists. And the question came up over and over "Why are we put on this earth? What is our purpose?" And I spent many, many days asking myself why was I here. And like this little voice in the back of my head kept always saying "Your here to help people." And some days it's so very hard to do that. Some days I wonder where is my Mary Jane? Where is the one to save me? But I heard this tonight and it helps to remind me why I am here:
"Courageous, self-sacrificing people. Setting examples for all of us. Everybody loves a hero. People line up for them, cheer them, scream their names. And years later, they'll tell how they stood in the rain for hours just to get a glimpse of the one who taught them how to hold on a second longer. I believe there's a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble, and finally allows us to die with pride, even though sometimes we have to be steady, and give up the thing we want the most. Even our dreams…"
And while I don't want to be a hero, perhaps I have to give up my dreams to help someone to achieve theirs that ultimately helps others in a way that's bigger then me. I don't know what that is or who that is but I must keep trying. I've told people before that I always like meeting new people cause I always feel there is something I can learn from them. Some way to look at life in a way that I hadn't looked before, but I realize also now that I also look at everyone as someone I can help. Perhaps the next person I help is "that" person. And perhaps I can be the person that "taught them how to hold on a second longer" enough to be Spiderman.
So I ask you, who of you can I help? Cause in some way I believe in all of you enough that you will accomplish something great out there.
So please...
As I hold out for you...
Just hold on a second longer.
