Dammit let go

[tsumik]

Why is love so cruel. I can't stop thinking of her, yet I want to walk away so badly. Love was never easy but I feel like I'm fighting a ghost I can't see and memories that I can't face.

Delerium - Fallen

"Do you remember me,
I'm just a shadow now.
This is where I used to be,
Right here beside you.
Sometimes I call your name,
High on a summer breeze.
What I would give,
To feel the sunlight on my face.
What I would give,
To be lost in your embrace."

I've tried. I've gone out, hung out, dated and everytime I turn away wanting nothing to do with love. I'm stuck behind this patina of hurt. What scares me is from this point on I'm afraid I will never be able to forget. How did this happen so fast? I guess that's what happens with shooting stars... Burn so brightly they burn up and destroy themselves in a fiery blaze before falling to earth as nothing but dust.

"May my heart be free from angels" ~tsumik