Thanks to seaopaque for reminding me of such an appropriate entry

[tsumik]

At 11:20 am on September 13th, 2002 I wrote and entry which I'll post here:

"You can answer a simple yes or no if you'd like but...

Have you ever felt trapped. Or not even so much trapped but a very disturbing pressure that everything your good at and everything you want to explore and learn about is stiffled and suppressed by the confines of reality and society? I sit here and just got done reading an article about Joshua Davis who is the mind behind praystation.com and dreamless.org. You can go there but you won't see anything. See he's a designer. But more then just a designer someone who's free of the bonds of reality it seems. In the matrix they talk about this splinter in your mind. When I heard that for the first time watching the matrix not knowing anything about the movie I was like "THAT'S ME!" But not so much in the way of the matrix, but more that freedom of being a child. My 9 to 5, my bills, my regular life seem to be just getting in the way. I envy those people who get to do what there passions and love drive them to be and make a decent living doing it. I've always dreamed of living and working in what I call the Studio. A place where everything around me doesn't stiffle me or hinder me in doing what I need to explore and grow. Photography, light, computers, beauty, technology, philosophy, contradiction, fear, sound, red, animals, stars, etc. etc. All these things I want to know more about, to look at more closely. I feel like I need like a hundred of me to be able to have each one go and explore one avenue of my life. Cause I feel in a lifetime I won't be able to learn/do everything I want to do. Of course everyone I try explain this to tells me "Just Do It.' So my questions...

1) Do I make any sense?
2) Does this even seem possible?
3) Have any idea how to get there?

Thanks"

Now to me this entry seem so appropriate to my life. Cause I started to "Just Do It." I cast myself away from the world of consulting and web design and took a big leap back to the world of photography. To be a photographer. And I feel alot more free then I ever have. That "Studio" feels so much closer now then it ever did. And while I'm not entirely sure of the roadmap of how I got here from there, all I know is it alot of endless determination and alot of endless support from my friends were definitely the answer. For if you have even one friend who believes in you nothing else will ever be needed to sustain the possiblity of reaching ones dreams. Next stop... "The Studio"

Comments

[digdugangel.livejournal.com]

"For if you have even one friend who believes in you nothing else will ever be needed to sustain the possiblity of reaching ones dreams."

This is SO true man. Everyone can acheive their dreams....but without the help of friends sometimes it is easy to lose sight of the most important things, or to stay focused. I found this quote today and thought it appropriate to your entry:

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
- Anais Nin

[flykid.livejournal.com]

eric, how have you been? i'd like to know :)

[tsumik.livejournal.com]

Quite well actually =) Yourself?