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Ah what a interesting place to find contentment. So I'm home alone with no tv on, no music, no real sounds. And I'm getting a chance to do something I haven't had in a REALLY long time which is polish my shoes. Now while i used to have to do it all the time in the military it's so wonderful how at ease with life i feel doing it. I think I realize why I would like to have alot of money someday. Sure all the material things would be nice but I think having alot of money would give me the one thing I don't think I have alot of which is time. If I had the money to pay my bills and such I think I wouldn't have to spend 40 hours a week plus the time it takes to commute to instead of making a life, to live a life. I think that's why I like the movie "Thomas Crown Affair" so much. He can just enjoy live and explore and play and live a life. Not spend all the time in the world it seems just to make a life.

Something else I noticed is how experience and tragities in life make one more a realist then a dreamer. I think maybe that's why alot of us would love to return to a childhood to live and dream instead of looking at the world in such a realist view. Hopefully I can remind myself from time to time to dream, play, and enjoy life a little instead of being a realist making a life all the time.