Ugh

So what a weekend. After rockstarring it at the Mark and Hagen's on friday it was a weekend lounging with my roomate and one of my friends. I ate so much food that totally goes against me working out for the last two weeks but got to live a little right? =)

My site StillVapor is down due to a massive server outage with my hosting provider. Definitely not good as it's been over 24 hours and I can't access anything. My site, my emails, my forum, my photogalleries, etc. Le sigh.

Also my cell phone is off. Sprint can die. So no text messaging and calls for me until it's back on. So sorry for anyone who's been trying to get ahold of me. Haven't been able to talk to anyone really since tuesday.

As for the 250 million doller question. I'll save that for a post tomorrow or later tonight. =)

And we're back to sleep not being my friend again...

Sooooo what do I do when I can't sleep? Listen to music and play artist of course =)

( Splash of digital paint )

and off to attempt to meet Mr. Sandman yet again... hopefully he'll show this time.

And the websites are still down...

news at 11... lol.. erg

Too many red dots still. I wish they'd hurry up and fix things.

http://www.hostdime.com/status/

Dammit let go

Why is love so cruel. I can't stop thinking of her, yet I want to walk away so badly. Love was never easy but I feel like I'm fighting a ghost I can't see and memories that I can't face.

Delerium - Fallen

"Do you remember me,
I'm just a shadow now.
This is where I used to be,
Right here beside you.
Sometimes I call your name,
High on a summer breeze.
What I would give,
To feel the sunlight on my face.
What I would give,
To be lost in your embrace."

I've tried. I've gone out, hung out, dated and everytime I turn away wanting nothing to do with love. I'm stuck behind this patina of hurt. What scares me is from this point on I'm afraid I will never be able to forget. How did this happen so fast? I guess that's what happens with shooting stars... Burn so brightly they burn up and destroy themselves in a fiery blaze before falling to earth as nothing but dust.

"May my heart be free from angels" ~tsumik